3/18/2009 10:52:03 AM Ann, I know you are a very smart woman and work very hard. I congratulate you for this. However, I just watched you destroy 20 years of hard work and what you built for the most important part of your life; to find someone you lost and to have the most deepest and rewarding love which could lift your image to a higher level and give you a sense of pride and accomplishment. I watched in horror as you slowly chipped away and blew it apart in less than 6 months and when I asked you why or asked if you would get psychiatric help; you told me it was “blind rage.” There is something seriously wrong.
I will give you an example: if I say “would it be too much to ask if I asked to you stop dining with single men?” You would go on Hannity and Colmes and say “they shared a dinner table together” meaning what is the big deal? If I said, “I do not like you running around with some close knit circle of friends and giving them all this access to my work” you say how it is strictly business and no trips are ever for pleasure or romance. Then I ask you about the pictures which clearly show you having the time of your life (while a captive or your entire love life a captive) and you express no care and state how it is as much fun as a girl can have or good clean fun. You put yourself in stupid situations and make excuses for it as if you did not piss anybody off. It is called being selfish and you will defend this to the end unapologetically; even if it is a disgrace.
You told me there was never an occasion where any man got two dates. I had asked you several times and I just blew it off afterwards. I asked if you ever invited anybody to your residence or if you stay at anybody’s house when you travel. There are a lot of rumors and a lot of love triangles. There are men telling me how you are theirs and how good you are in bed. It is pretty bad. Then out of nowhere you tell me how you like the male attention and how it makes you feel so good. You tell me how you have low esteem due to a less than perfect body. Then you began to feel guilty and said you were hiding something big but could not tell me. You had said it had to do with Hannity and he was married. I had no idea it was another married man!
I was upset because I took so much abuse and was put in a coma where I was almost crippled and you showed up the moment I got home and I asked why. You showed a genuine concern but your actions are of “too big to fail” and nobody will ever catch you doing anything wrong. I overlooked a lot of things because you had asked me to forgive you 100s of times. Then you just kind of stopped answering me and went on dinners, went on conferences, and did shows where you snapped pictures with the hosts at bars for happy hour. Then you said where the crime is or why make a big deal out of it? Then I asked if I can do this with women in the future and you said nothing. I asked you if it is not so bad; then you will never mind if I did this while with someone and you said nothing.
Your behavior was so horrific and what I witnessed was so disturbing you were trying to cause mental grief for me after everything I did and how I had made you a respectable and whole person again. Then you went and did the Jimmy Norton show (who is a guy that went on a radio show and described sex with his girlfriend, how he uses his fingers, and when she sleeps he likes to open her butt up and sniff it to make sure she is hygiene conscious.) You may not be very hygiene conscious but I must say to wash it down there okay, it is embarrassing to say the least. You may want to take better care of yourself Annie.
In six months you wrecked 20 years of your life and you kept pouring our how hurt you were and how hard you had worked. I got to the point where I gave up on you. You were totally out of control and wanted to inflict as much pain on me as you could because I disapproved and was pissed off just hearing about it. You were acting as if you were guilty and did things so outrageous to cover it up. I had complained about drinking buddies and you called up Jimmy Norton and said how you and he hang out all the time and if he was going to meet you that night “as usual.” Then posted pictures of him and his buddy with a grin on his face and you looking blitzed and stoned out of your mind; as if you had no idea what was going on.
If I did that with Laura or Ainsley or someone who had a major crush for me you would flip and get so defensive. Yet when I do it, it’s a crime because you do not trust women. Well, what the hell do you expect from me? To trust women also? I’ll run around the country with every woman and pretend to be having an affair with them to see how you feel and then tell you “where is the crime” or “you have nothing to be jealous about.” Then we can see who is right or who is wrong okay. I am in dire straits and if I have to rely on someone, than it is an emergency. None of this is an emergency. You log so much time with strangers and men and log very little time with me and call it business or career. But when I look at the photos, it looks like a bash and a celebration.
Ann, you have no comprehension of right and wrong preferring to emulate me. In my case it is an emergency, in your case it is just business. I am so sick of it and you now. Half the stuff I do not even know and is secret or I was not even there. Yet for some reason, you feel you have a special claim to me and special relationship which is real; it was until you ruined it in only six months. Than you told me you had to go get sedatives because you felt a nervous breakdown after 20 years and the nose dive after the trip to LA. Of all the problems, I never once criticized your work or work habits; I did not like your private life and asked you about holidays; recreational trips; outings, reports of you and groups of friends in Palm Beach and NYC; etc…
I do not have the same privileges and what privileges I do have are for emergencies; so I tend to think you abuse your female persuasions and use your influence over others to create an image that causes you to win when you may otherwise not. I do not like the arm candy idea or the pictures of it. I do not like hearing about secret parties or conferences intended to seduce you or keep you interested in a circle of single men. Why you attend them is a whole other reason when you could be building a life with me. If that is what you want, then do not log time with other men and make excuses or hold onto this secret life which ends up causing me so much grief then wondering if I will ever come around and love you fully.
Most people hate you and I am beginning to understand why. You have no comprehension of what friendship and love is about; you think it is just doing the craziest and most outrageous things to prove your courage or some characteristic you have that cannot be criticized. Yet there is a lot of room for criticism and that is my entire point here. You are a hateful person and it comes out as subtle with me. You put yourself in stupid places and you make excuses, which I have done before and understand, but to you it is a way of life. I did not mind you going to a WH dinner for once, or an award ceremony once, but to make it a way of life is unacceptable. Through the years it has been crap about all your male friends Drudge, Maher, Hannity, Rush, etc…
It is getting to the point where something has to give and you have to show me why you are a champion because women are coming to my aid and to fight you off or stop you. I had to fight off your stalkers and now I have women helping me and can see you for who you are also. Yet you call those guys your friends and something is not right. I can now see it on your face as the guilt and the tension builds up as you try to take as many bullets as you can for others out of guilt and hope I will forgive or overlook what you did or has happened; “what the hell is this woman doing? She is either courageous or downright insane.” Why is she trying to win my heart by doing that; it is almost like jumping off a bridge.
I think it is high time you sit down, lock the door, do not go out on dates or dinners, do not attend any social event; and pour out your heart and write an honest biography of why your life is so messed up and why I want to leave you. You can’t even use the US mail like a normal person and nothing is normal in your or our life. In my eyes, you are mentally instance, too defensive, too secretive, very vindictive, and would rather inflict pain and grief on others than explain yourself when you cannot. If you want love and worked twenty years; then you can surely explain the mistakes and explain why or what you did. I think that is fair unless your guilt is so bad you know it is suicide.
It was a hard sell Annie, but once you stopped or could not answer yes or no; I knew there was a major problem and you were even exaggerating and lying on certain occasions; then you felt guilt eventually and admitted “something you were hiding.” Meanwhile, I was nominating you for a Congressional Medal and you destroyed the lives of others recklessly or not. You caused a lot of grief and to some whose only crime was living. I feel self hate and even guilt for aiding you now but I was not there and never there. Just like the dinners and the drinking buddies; I was not there and never there so you kicked up the show again which got me more and more disgusted.
So did you do anything to piss me off and had your friends hide it so you could bond with them and have this special access and privilege? Are they blackmailing you or is that why you won’t get rid of them for attacking me? Your so called “friends” attacked me and you did nothing or did not fire them. Why? Are they going to retaliate also? What other secrets are you holding and taking to the grave or will you ever say after I cleaned up and made you look pristine again? So keep meeting them and flying to LA for a one hour show; I think it is just some secret pact you have going with a few reckless people you hang out with and keep around. No wonder you were so frustrated with them and flew out to see them immediately when they called your name or demanded to see you in conference.
If anybody reads this, I have some advice for you. You will never catch Annie, never. Only I can. She is not dangerous or a threat; just annoying and a nuisance; just her private life also, nothing else. She argues her point constantly and even I tell her to shut up or “no buts about it.” Ann takes things too far and is too detailed at times when important things are neglected. She works on trivial things of no benefit and makes it a routine or a habit. Ann is a confrontational person and likes to show boat. She takes too many chances for very little gains. With her it is either win big or looses it all. She likes to keep people guessing but does not like to be guessing. She is not modest enough to avoid being called a hypocrite which built thick skin and a defensive attitude through the years.
There are things about Annie intimately people will not like and will never accept. I am dealing with this now; Ann is unapologetic about it, thinking it is some female trophy trait. She is obsessed with the image of being a trophy wife and to offer it as a full platter of womanhood for some lucky man. The only problem is it appeals to rich Jewish men and not military ones who are not urban dwellers and are rugged individualists. All the fame and fortune got to her head but she does appear independent and less likely to act lewd now in public with all the attention. I think at some point she realized she will never outlive it and had to either lie or do outrageous things to overwhelm the curiosity of attention.
I think she messed up and is trying to get a second chance back; but it is hard if she has to answer questions or be accountable. I have attacked her closest friends and they did not fire back any salvos; but Annie did; so I knew she was protecting them and secrets. It is easy to tell when or if she was lying. Annie is almost at a point of near break down trying to please various circle of friends who she relies on to keep her private life secret. So I told them if I found out they laid to me, I would get rid of them. So if they want to defend her, at least defend her honestly and let the chips fall as they will.
I broke Rush. Then I broke Sean. Then I broke the media. Then I broke Maher. I almost broke LA but could not because she had a private meeting. Then I almost broke Annie when I got a report of her engagements and ex boyfriend lists, stating that if any of it was true, then do not waste her time. Then she came out with the Ron Silver eulogy about her affair with him and his threesome with her wife (before I would never believe it from Annie; now I don’t know). There is just so much bizarre stuff.
But Laura had warned me about some hotel and some incident she overheard of sharing a bed with some close friend. It used to be fun and games while a captives but now it is more of an emergency and a serious matter. (i.e.: fisting was a joke to play sexy, in the state of CT you would beat your wife so long as the stick was less than 3cm in circumference – another joke, sodomy was how they cracked down on gays but how Catholic girls lost their virginity, I had interviewed Hooters – strippers – bar tenders – girls at dance clubs – the single scene essentially.)
I had thought her LA crew had something very bad and asked her but she said nothing and would not answer. Then she flew out there and had a secret meeting with them and the attacks stopped. Next thing I know, Maher spills the beans as Annie had told me and that was off the table or sort of resolved. Then Annie took the first cut or last one and said how they would hang out all the time in NYC which made her a mystery again. I just got fed up and finally threw the towel in and remembered a real woman, Lori. Lori went out of her ways to not offend or make you uncomfortable; yet was so committed and so honorable and graceful. There is or was no room for any criticism.
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