March 29, 2009 Overall, Ann (which means me actually) does not support abortion; yet we know we would never need to use it or is so irresponsible to advocate it. So our stance for our life is anti-abortion. However, abortion is a powerful weapon against crime and even civil war in the African region. Look at the video below!
Saving the Witch Children of Niger:
Benny Hinn v Media Religion:
Ann Coulter v Four Salem Radio DJ’s:
Rancho Perot v Black Panther (1992):
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
THE PRICE OF LOVE: A LOVE LETTER TO ANN COULTER ON WHAT TO DO ABOUT OUR LOVE LIFE AND US MAR 21, 2009
3/21/2009 12:52:25 PM Annie, do you admit that you are chicken shit? In 1998 you had numerous opportunities to meet me and marry but you were so chicken shit and scared to meet and have a one night stand. Then I went to the beach and in one hour or night, the best looking girl on the east coast stole me while you poured over grief about sitting idly. Yes I was under attack and yes it was dangerous. Then seven years later you got the balls to finally find me and contact me and once again, you proved to be chicken shit after I said why do you mess our relationship up so badly and why are you such a horrible manager? You want everything to be so perfect and it ends up being a total disaster. You are not able to act on impulse and your management skills are not intuitive to others needs. Your management skills suck and I will be very honest.
Then to cover it up and remove the blame, you prey on weak Jewish men and accumulate 1000s of dates to suggest you were not a failure and can wait it out and have all the fun in the world. You play the act out to create this image of you know which is a complete opposite of what your true feelings are and even admit how badly you messed up and screwed up our life and your love life. Now, you are so far out of touch from reality you plead your case by describing how loyal and good you were to have waited and how you beat me to the press and worked so hard to provide some point where you and I can enjoy this but had to pull some crazy stunt because your plans were intercepted and foiled because you sat on your ass. Now it looks like you never sit on your ass and are a go getter when you had missed so many opportunities from 1998 to 2002.
Looking back and in hindsight, the regret is you ended up logging so much time with other men, the vast rumors and allegations, the self admission and guilt, and now you are on the verge of a nervous breakdown not even understanding why things turned out like so and rewrite the book on our life. I admit that crippling me and taking me out for 5-7 years really ruined our love life; but you had to reinvent the wheel and form a habit of being a go getter and like me. I traveled around the US, I am military, I take the initiative, while you like to pose for pictures as Jewish or privileged arm candy.
It is a bad and worse situation made worse by idea you are telling me this and how you screwed up so badly. You were scared to go on a date with me and turned it into how you could not get enough or live a life of “as much fun as a girl can have.” Then you created the idea you were comfortable with circles of friends and with all these interpersonal relationships when you were miserable and covering up a failure you still are not able to even discuss and how close to disaster it truly got. Scared out of your wits and not able to reset the clock, you are still scared of me and deflecting all analysis while forced to admit where things went badly. Your management skill sucks and that has gotten you a bad private life where you do not wish anybody to know it. You hired a public relations or image company to cover up the mistakes with me so you could reunite 7 years later under different and false terms.
Lori, the girl who stole me while you sat and watch was so superior and perfect; you were climbing a big hill. She also fell in love with me at first sight but had no money or the career you had; what she had was a perfect personality and very few if uneventful problems. You are so overwhelmed and overloaded you created some image to match her so you could compete with the biggest threat. Then when I finally had a talk with you, I said, looks do not last but memories do and you broke down crying about how you were going to burn in hell when I asked you if you messed up.
I sympathize how you only wanted to marry and was so scared and chicken but had to change this and learn to grow some balls or become a go getter. You almost represent Miss America and are selling yourself to the world but you knew I had met so many women over the years (1000s) and could see right through them or knew who they were immediately. Now you are plain scared and insecure but been with me for 20 years, 10 as just a partner and “love of your life” and finally have to make a move. It is a total disaster and it makes you more insecure and looking bad. Any other man would laugh or beat you silly with ridicule; but I think I am more patient with you and your beautiful disaster which I cannot even stand. The only way is to redirect it or create more outrage to desensitize me.
I was so impressed with Lori and I think you went home or back to NY with the feeling of total failure. She picked me out, followed me around, talked to me and let me know, then surrendered and told me to stay because she was lonely and needed me to be happy in life. You have really challenged me now and caused utter confusion and internal bleeding where I hate you one moment and love you the next or exist feeling sorry for you having screwed up so badly with me and holding on and not letting go. You refuse to give up and that is worthy but you cover it up and do things which get nowhere. If you had an uneventful life; there would not be any criticism or problems. I do not know what to say because in one sense I am also responsible for this mess and you.
I kept talking about Lori and how much of a woman she was or how I admired her so much for being so self assertive and superior over others. She scored a perfect 10 in every category and displayed incredible female characteristics and it made you feel small and defensive to win me back. I have become so heart broken and confused but I know had we not been attacked or kidnapped; life would be better so I cannot put the blame on you directly as you had to stand and watch. It is like your father being killed by his enemies’ right before your eyes; except your father figure is actually your guardian in life.
You are not going to jail they are; but over the 7 years you grew as a person kinda badly. Now you want to be with the champions and have to face the champions while you prettied yourself with the scrub club. I do not know how you will react around military people this intimidating and strong; but you are using weaker people to show you are just as strong or worthy and it has created a lot of tensions. Funny, because you did back on them what they did on me preyed on us and wrecked our life by filling it with pain and grief. You do not even know how I will react to the mess and how you screwed up your life by fighting out this predicament you are in. Remember the story I wrote at Va. Tech “English 101” called The Price of Love; that is you and you read it. It was about freedom and my mother who died; and that is you and you were inspired by the eulogy. I wrote that my freedom was based on her giving her life up for me and that is the price of love.
I do not know how to react and you are slow to call and talk to me now. Terrified of me does not begin to describe it because I am such a perfectionist and you had to win me back from a woman who was one in a million and more. Take Ainsley Earhardt and multiply by three and give her a bar tender coolness unlike anybody you will meet. You will not beat her so do not try to match her; what you can do is be honest and be humble about how things went and you hope we will stay together and work things out. Do not force love or make others love you; you will drive them away Annie, serious, fake love or making people love you is near tyranny.
Going out with men or losers to make other men jealous is asinine if not petty stupidity. If you want love at your age and in the last parts of your life; you have to count on memories and you are filled with horror and bad ones. I know how bad it was and I am trying to help if I can because I am not the enemy and recognize your daring effort to seek a mate or the humiliation you had put yourself through by the self infliction of wounds. Ask what I was mad at and what pissed me off Ann? What did you do to piss me off and retaliate? Yes, your private life and what you call “all lies.” Step above the lies and live above them to be the real you; stop living a lie Annie. I am very glad to see you taking off and will stop working for a while. It is the best decision you have made your entire life. You have a lot of injures and you have to recover. Your eulogy is going to be horrific and a total lie; you got to put the damn brakes on okay. You told me you are beginning to get a nervous breakdown and had to get sedatives because of the stress I put on you and the countless heartbreaks. That is a clear indication of a problem. We need therapy for our professional life and kidnapping, god knows about our private life.
Annie, women fall head over heals for me. It has been a major problem in my life and a curse also. Ask why you are head over heals for me and would put you through torture and pain unimaginable; reach fame and fortune and wait as my kidnappers released me so we could be together again. There is good and bad in us all but the willingness to win and conqueror our demons is a good way out. You are right to be terrified of me and to seek my approval always so we can have such a deep love. I have never ever let you down until the moment you froze and watched as a champion stole me while you sat cursing at why you did nothing. You see, do not sit on your ass and think you can juggle thousands of things as you tried and got me so angry about again. You got to stop messing up Ann that is the bottom line. You have to live and prove you are a champion if you want to be considered one; dump the people that hold you back. Stop the god damn king of the ants act also.
Ann I think you are so reckless you want me to stay desperate and dependent on you. I do not think you love with the intent of freeing or letting who you love become free of your sorcery. You also know that I would never approve and let you get away with the rumors I hear and the idea that you had all this fun and did not try to act out some pathology or insecurity of your flaws. Real champions are low key. You know that I would not and are not going to approve and you struggle to figure out how to make let go or stop hounding you. Your fame really brought out the dysfunctions and flaws. It is not a pristine and shining star but you told me you are no angel. I have no idea what that means and what you want from it.
Ann, I am too beaten up by this satellite warfare and stolen SDI kidnapping. I have irresolvable and mountainous problems. The last thing I need is marital issues just as how I need a drunk for a spouse. You got to decide quick and let go or move on; but I do think you are not living up to your end of the bargain unless I accept you fully. You spent day and night crying in order to have me accept you and forget about Lori, your arch nemesis. What are you a female Bill Clinton? You go through men more times than Clinton does and it is disturbing no less sexual. Worse, you drag me through the mud of your life and do not even ask me but want me to accept you now. We have a lot of memories Annie and you told me you are quitting and we are going to get married. I think quitting is a great idea; rebuild your life and ours; we have massive problems. There is hemorrhaging and internal bleeding; stopping the bleeding is just the first problem.
Then to cover it up and remove the blame, you prey on weak Jewish men and accumulate 1000s of dates to suggest you were not a failure and can wait it out and have all the fun in the world. You play the act out to create this image of you know which is a complete opposite of what your true feelings are and even admit how badly you messed up and screwed up our life and your love life. Now, you are so far out of touch from reality you plead your case by describing how loyal and good you were to have waited and how you beat me to the press and worked so hard to provide some point where you and I can enjoy this but had to pull some crazy stunt because your plans were intercepted and foiled because you sat on your ass. Now it looks like you never sit on your ass and are a go getter when you had missed so many opportunities from 1998 to 2002.
Looking back and in hindsight, the regret is you ended up logging so much time with other men, the vast rumors and allegations, the self admission and guilt, and now you are on the verge of a nervous breakdown not even understanding why things turned out like so and rewrite the book on our life. I admit that crippling me and taking me out for 5-7 years really ruined our love life; but you had to reinvent the wheel and form a habit of being a go getter and like me. I traveled around the US, I am military, I take the initiative, while you like to pose for pictures as Jewish or privileged arm candy.
It is a bad and worse situation made worse by idea you are telling me this and how you screwed up so badly. You were scared to go on a date with me and turned it into how you could not get enough or live a life of “as much fun as a girl can have.” Then you created the idea you were comfortable with circles of friends and with all these interpersonal relationships when you were miserable and covering up a failure you still are not able to even discuss and how close to disaster it truly got. Scared out of your wits and not able to reset the clock, you are still scared of me and deflecting all analysis while forced to admit where things went badly. Your management skill sucks and that has gotten you a bad private life where you do not wish anybody to know it. You hired a public relations or image company to cover up the mistakes with me so you could reunite 7 years later under different and false terms.
Lori, the girl who stole me while you sat and watch was so superior and perfect; you were climbing a big hill. She also fell in love with me at first sight but had no money or the career you had; what she had was a perfect personality and very few if uneventful problems. You are so overwhelmed and overloaded you created some image to match her so you could compete with the biggest threat. Then when I finally had a talk with you, I said, looks do not last but memories do and you broke down crying about how you were going to burn in hell when I asked you if you messed up.
I sympathize how you only wanted to marry and was so scared and chicken but had to change this and learn to grow some balls or become a go getter. You almost represent Miss America and are selling yourself to the world but you knew I had met so many women over the years (1000s) and could see right through them or knew who they were immediately. Now you are plain scared and insecure but been with me for 20 years, 10 as just a partner and “love of your life” and finally have to make a move. It is a total disaster and it makes you more insecure and looking bad. Any other man would laugh or beat you silly with ridicule; but I think I am more patient with you and your beautiful disaster which I cannot even stand. The only way is to redirect it or create more outrage to desensitize me.
I was so impressed with Lori and I think you went home or back to NY with the feeling of total failure. She picked me out, followed me around, talked to me and let me know, then surrendered and told me to stay because she was lonely and needed me to be happy in life. You have really challenged me now and caused utter confusion and internal bleeding where I hate you one moment and love you the next or exist feeling sorry for you having screwed up so badly with me and holding on and not letting go. You refuse to give up and that is worthy but you cover it up and do things which get nowhere. If you had an uneventful life; there would not be any criticism or problems. I do not know what to say because in one sense I am also responsible for this mess and you.
I kept talking about Lori and how much of a woman she was or how I admired her so much for being so self assertive and superior over others. She scored a perfect 10 in every category and displayed incredible female characteristics and it made you feel small and defensive to win me back. I have become so heart broken and confused but I know had we not been attacked or kidnapped; life would be better so I cannot put the blame on you directly as you had to stand and watch. It is like your father being killed by his enemies’ right before your eyes; except your father figure is actually your guardian in life.
You are not going to jail they are; but over the 7 years you grew as a person kinda badly. Now you want to be with the champions and have to face the champions while you prettied yourself with the scrub club. I do not know how you will react around military people this intimidating and strong; but you are using weaker people to show you are just as strong or worthy and it has created a lot of tensions. Funny, because you did back on them what they did on me preyed on us and wrecked our life by filling it with pain and grief. You do not even know how I will react to the mess and how you screwed up your life by fighting out this predicament you are in. Remember the story I wrote at Va. Tech “English 101” called The Price of Love; that is you and you read it. It was about freedom and my mother who died; and that is you and you were inspired by the eulogy. I wrote that my freedom was based on her giving her life up for me and that is the price of love.
I do not know how to react and you are slow to call and talk to me now. Terrified of me does not begin to describe it because I am such a perfectionist and you had to win me back from a woman who was one in a million and more. Take Ainsley Earhardt and multiply by three and give her a bar tender coolness unlike anybody you will meet. You will not beat her so do not try to match her; what you can do is be honest and be humble about how things went and you hope we will stay together and work things out. Do not force love or make others love you; you will drive them away Annie, serious, fake love or making people love you is near tyranny.
Going out with men or losers to make other men jealous is asinine if not petty stupidity. If you want love at your age and in the last parts of your life; you have to count on memories and you are filled with horror and bad ones. I know how bad it was and I am trying to help if I can because I am not the enemy and recognize your daring effort to seek a mate or the humiliation you had put yourself through by the self infliction of wounds. Ask what I was mad at and what pissed me off Ann? What did you do to piss me off and retaliate? Yes, your private life and what you call “all lies.” Step above the lies and live above them to be the real you; stop living a lie Annie. I am very glad to see you taking off and will stop working for a while. It is the best decision you have made your entire life. You have a lot of injures and you have to recover. Your eulogy is going to be horrific and a total lie; you got to put the damn brakes on okay. You told me you are beginning to get a nervous breakdown and had to get sedatives because of the stress I put on you and the countless heartbreaks. That is a clear indication of a problem. We need therapy for our professional life and kidnapping, god knows about our private life.
Annie, women fall head over heals for me. It has been a major problem in my life and a curse also. Ask why you are head over heals for me and would put you through torture and pain unimaginable; reach fame and fortune and wait as my kidnappers released me so we could be together again. There is good and bad in us all but the willingness to win and conqueror our demons is a good way out. You are right to be terrified of me and to seek my approval always so we can have such a deep love. I have never ever let you down until the moment you froze and watched as a champion stole me while you sat cursing at why you did nothing. You see, do not sit on your ass and think you can juggle thousands of things as you tried and got me so angry about again. You got to stop messing up Ann that is the bottom line. You have to live and prove you are a champion if you want to be considered one; dump the people that hold you back. Stop the god damn king of the ants act also.
Ann I think you are so reckless you want me to stay desperate and dependent on you. I do not think you love with the intent of freeing or letting who you love become free of your sorcery. You also know that I would never approve and let you get away with the rumors I hear and the idea that you had all this fun and did not try to act out some pathology or insecurity of your flaws. Real champions are low key. You know that I would not and are not going to approve and you struggle to figure out how to make let go or stop hounding you. Your fame really brought out the dysfunctions and flaws. It is not a pristine and shining star but you told me you are no angel. I have no idea what that means and what you want from it.
Ann, I am too beaten up by this satellite warfare and stolen SDI kidnapping. I have irresolvable and mountainous problems. The last thing I need is marital issues just as how I need a drunk for a spouse. You got to decide quick and let go or move on; but I do think you are not living up to your end of the bargain unless I accept you fully. You spent day and night crying in order to have me accept you and forget about Lori, your arch nemesis. What are you a female Bill Clinton? You go through men more times than Clinton does and it is disturbing no less sexual. Worse, you drag me through the mud of your life and do not even ask me but want me to accept you now. We have a lot of memories Annie and you told me you are quitting and we are going to get married. I think quitting is a great idea; rebuild your life and ours; we have massive problems. There is hemorrhaging and internal bleeding; stopping the bleeding is just the first problem.
LETTER 1 TO ANN COULTER: A LOVE LETTER NOT EVERYTHING TO EVERYONE
3/18/2009 10:52:03 AM Ann, I know you are a very smart woman and work very hard. I congratulate you for this. However, I just watched you destroy 20 years of hard work and what you built for the most important part of your life; to find someone you lost and to have the most deepest and rewarding love which could lift your image to a higher level and give you a sense of pride and accomplishment. I watched in horror as you slowly chipped away and blew it apart in less than 6 months and when I asked you why or asked if you would get psychiatric help; you told me it was “blind rage.” There is something seriously wrong.
I will give you an example: if I say “would it be too much to ask if I asked to you stop dining with single men?” You would go on Hannity and Colmes and say “they shared a dinner table together” meaning what is the big deal? If I said, “I do not like you running around with some close knit circle of friends and giving them all this access to my work” you say how it is strictly business and no trips are ever for pleasure or romance. Then I ask you about the pictures which clearly show you having the time of your life (while a captive or your entire love life a captive) and you express no care and state how it is as much fun as a girl can have or good clean fun. You put yourself in stupid situations and make excuses for it as if you did not piss anybody off. It is called being selfish and you will defend this to the end unapologetically; even if it is a disgrace.
You told me there was never an occasion where any man got two dates. I had asked you several times and I just blew it off afterwards. I asked if you ever invited anybody to your residence or if you stay at anybody’s house when you travel. There are a lot of rumors and a lot of love triangles. There are men telling me how you are theirs and how good you are in bed. It is pretty bad. Then out of nowhere you tell me how you like the male attention and how it makes you feel so good. You tell me how you have low esteem due to a less than perfect body. Then you began to feel guilty and said you were hiding something big but could not tell me. You had said it had to do with Hannity and he was married. I had no idea it was another married man!
I was upset because I took so much abuse and was put in a coma where I was almost crippled and you showed up the moment I got home and I asked why. You showed a genuine concern but your actions are of “too big to fail” and nobody will ever catch you doing anything wrong. I overlooked a lot of things because you had asked me to forgive you 100s of times. Then you just kind of stopped answering me and went on dinners, went on conferences, and did shows where you snapped pictures with the hosts at bars for happy hour. Then you said where the crime is or why make a big deal out of it? Then I asked if I can do this with women in the future and you said nothing. I asked you if it is not so bad; then you will never mind if I did this while with someone and you said nothing.
Your behavior was so horrific and what I witnessed was so disturbing you were trying to cause mental grief for me after everything I did and how I had made you a respectable and whole person again. Then you went and did the Jimmy Norton show (who is a guy that went on a radio show and described sex with his girlfriend, how he uses his fingers, and when she sleeps he likes to open her butt up and sniff it to make sure she is hygiene conscious.) You may not be very hygiene conscious but I must say to wash it down there okay, it is embarrassing to say the least. You may want to take better care of yourself Annie.
In six months you wrecked 20 years of your life and you kept pouring our how hurt you were and how hard you had worked. I got to the point where I gave up on you. You were totally out of control and wanted to inflict as much pain on me as you could because I disapproved and was pissed off just hearing about it. You were acting as if you were guilty and did things so outrageous to cover it up. I had complained about drinking buddies and you called up Jimmy Norton and said how you and he hang out all the time and if he was going to meet you that night “as usual.” Then posted pictures of him and his buddy with a grin on his face and you looking blitzed and stoned out of your mind; as if you had no idea what was going on.
If I did that with Laura or Ainsley or someone who had a major crush for me you would flip and get so defensive. Yet when I do it, it’s a crime because you do not trust women. Well, what the hell do you expect from me? To trust women also? I’ll run around the country with every woman and pretend to be having an affair with them to see how you feel and then tell you “where is the crime” or “you have nothing to be jealous about.” Then we can see who is right or who is wrong okay. I am in dire straits and if I have to rely on someone, than it is an emergency. None of this is an emergency. You log so much time with strangers and men and log very little time with me and call it business or career. But when I look at the photos, it looks like a bash and a celebration.
Ann, you have no comprehension of right and wrong preferring to emulate me. In my case it is an emergency, in your case it is just business. I am so sick of it and you now. Half the stuff I do not even know and is secret or I was not even there. Yet for some reason, you feel you have a special claim to me and special relationship which is real; it was until you ruined it in only six months. Than you told me you had to go get sedatives because you felt a nervous breakdown after 20 years and the nose dive after the trip to LA. Of all the problems, I never once criticized your work or work habits; I did not like your private life and asked you about holidays; recreational trips; outings, reports of you and groups of friends in Palm Beach and NYC; etc…
I do not have the same privileges and what privileges I do have are for emergencies; so I tend to think you abuse your female persuasions and use your influence over others to create an image that causes you to win when you may otherwise not. I do not like the arm candy idea or the pictures of it. I do not like hearing about secret parties or conferences intended to seduce you or keep you interested in a circle of single men. Why you attend them is a whole other reason when you could be building a life with me. If that is what you want, then do not log time with other men and make excuses or hold onto this secret life which ends up causing me so much grief then wondering if I will ever come around and love you fully.
Most people hate you and I am beginning to understand why. You have no comprehension of what friendship and love is about; you think it is just doing the craziest and most outrageous things to prove your courage or some characteristic you have that cannot be criticized. Yet there is a lot of room for criticism and that is my entire point here. You are a hateful person and it comes out as subtle with me. You put yourself in stupid places and you make excuses, which I have done before and understand, but to you it is a way of life. I did not mind you going to a WH dinner for once, or an award ceremony once, but to make it a way of life is unacceptable. Through the years it has been crap about all your male friends Drudge, Maher, Hannity, Rush, etc…
It is getting to the point where something has to give and you have to show me why you are a champion because women are coming to my aid and to fight you off or stop you. I had to fight off your stalkers and now I have women helping me and can see you for who you are also. Yet you call those guys your friends and something is not right. I can now see it on your face as the guilt and the tension builds up as you try to take as many bullets as you can for others out of guilt and hope I will forgive or overlook what you did or has happened; “what the hell is this woman doing? She is either courageous or downright insane.” Why is she trying to win my heart by doing that; it is almost like jumping off a bridge.
I think it is high time you sit down, lock the door, do not go out on dates or dinners, do not attend any social event; and pour out your heart and write an honest biography of why your life is so messed up and why I want to leave you. You can’t even use the US mail like a normal person and nothing is normal in your or our life. In my eyes, you are mentally instance, too defensive, too secretive, very vindictive, and would rather inflict pain and grief on others than explain yourself when you cannot. If you want love and worked twenty years; then you can surely explain the mistakes and explain why or what you did. I think that is fair unless your guilt is so bad you know it is suicide.
It was a hard sell Annie, but once you stopped or could not answer yes or no; I knew there was a major problem and you were even exaggerating and lying on certain occasions; then you felt guilt eventually and admitted “something you were hiding.” Meanwhile, I was nominating you for a Congressional Medal and you destroyed the lives of others recklessly or not. You caused a lot of grief and to some whose only crime was living. I feel self hate and even guilt for aiding you now but I was not there and never there. Just like the dinners and the drinking buddies; I was not there and never there so you kicked up the show again which got me more and more disgusted.
So did you do anything to piss me off and had your friends hide it so you could bond with them and have this special access and privilege? Are they blackmailing you or is that why you won’t get rid of them for attacking me? Your so called “friends” attacked me and you did nothing or did not fire them. Why? Are they going to retaliate also? What other secrets are you holding and taking to the grave or will you ever say after I cleaned up and made you look pristine again? So keep meeting them and flying to LA for a one hour show; I think it is just some secret pact you have going with a few reckless people you hang out with and keep around. No wonder you were so frustrated with them and flew out to see them immediately when they called your name or demanded to see you in conference.
If anybody reads this, I have some advice for you. You will never catch Annie, never. Only I can. She is not dangerous or a threat; just annoying and a nuisance; just her private life also, nothing else. She argues her point constantly and even I tell her to shut up or “no buts about it.” Ann takes things too far and is too detailed at times when important things are neglected. She works on trivial things of no benefit and makes it a routine or a habit. Ann is a confrontational person and likes to show boat. She takes too many chances for very little gains. With her it is either win big or looses it all. She likes to keep people guessing but does not like to be guessing. She is not modest enough to avoid being called a hypocrite which built thick skin and a defensive attitude through the years.
There are things about Annie intimately people will not like and will never accept. I am dealing with this now; Ann is unapologetic about it, thinking it is some female trophy trait. She is obsessed with the image of being a trophy wife and to offer it as a full platter of womanhood for some lucky man. The only problem is it appeals to rich Jewish men and not military ones who are not urban dwellers and are rugged individualists. All the fame and fortune got to her head but she does appear independent and less likely to act lewd now in public with all the attention. I think at some point she realized she will never outlive it and had to either lie or do outrageous things to overwhelm the curiosity of attention.
I think she messed up and is trying to get a second chance back; but it is hard if she has to answer questions or be accountable. I have attacked her closest friends and they did not fire back any salvos; but Annie did; so I knew she was protecting them and secrets. It is easy to tell when or if she was lying. Annie is almost at a point of near break down trying to please various circle of friends who she relies on to keep her private life secret. So I told them if I found out they laid to me, I would get rid of them. So if they want to defend her, at least defend her honestly and let the chips fall as they will.
I broke Rush. Then I broke Sean. Then I broke the media. Then I broke Maher. I almost broke LA but could not because she had a private meeting. Then I almost broke Annie when I got a report of her engagements and ex boyfriend lists, stating that if any of it was true, then do not waste her time. Then she came out with the Ron Silver eulogy about her affair with him and his threesome with her wife (before I would never believe it from Annie; now I don’t know). There is just so much bizarre stuff.
But Laura had warned me about some hotel and some incident she overheard of sharing a bed with some close friend. It used to be fun and games while a captives but now it is more of an emergency and a serious matter. (i.e.: fisting was a joke to play sexy, in the state of CT you would beat your wife so long as the stick was less than 3cm in circumference – another joke, sodomy was how they cracked down on gays but how Catholic girls lost their virginity, I had interviewed Hooters – strippers – bar tenders – girls at dance clubs – the single scene essentially.)
I had thought her LA crew had something very bad and asked her but she said nothing and would not answer. Then she flew out there and had a secret meeting with them and the attacks stopped. Next thing I know, Maher spills the beans as Annie had told me and that was off the table or sort of resolved. Then Annie took the first cut or last one and said how they would hang out all the time in NYC which made her a mystery again. I just got fed up and finally threw the towel in and remembered a real woman, Lori. Lori went out of her ways to not offend or make you uncomfortable; yet was so committed and so honorable and graceful. There is or was no room for any criticism.
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I will give you an example: if I say “would it be too much to ask if I asked to you stop dining with single men?” You would go on Hannity and Colmes and say “they shared a dinner table together” meaning what is the big deal? If I said, “I do not like you running around with some close knit circle of friends and giving them all this access to my work” you say how it is strictly business and no trips are ever for pleasure or romance. Then I ask you about the pictures which clearly show you having the time of your life (while a captive or your entire love life a captive) and you express no care and state how it is as much fun as a girl can have or good clean fun. You put yourself in stupid situations and make excuses for it as if you did not piss anybody off. It is called being selfish and you will defend this to the end unapologetically; even if it is a disgrace.
You told me there was never an occasion where any man got two dates. I had asked you several times and I just blew it off afterwards. I asked if you ever invited anybody to your residence or if you stay at anybody’s house when you travel. There are a lot of rumors and a lot of love triangles. There are men telling me how you are theirs and how good you are in bed. It is pretty bad. Then out of nowhere you tell me how you like the male attention and how it makes you feel so good. You tell me how you have low esteem due to a less than perfect body. Then you began to feel guilty and said you were hiding something big but could not tell me. You had said it had to do with Hannity and he was married. I had no idea it was another married man!
I was upset because I took so much abuse and was put in a coma where I was almost crippled and you showed up the moment I got home and I asked why. You showed a genuine concern but your actions are of “too big to fail” and nobody will ever catch you doing anything wrong. I overlooked a lot of things because you had asked me to forgive you 100s of times. Then you just kind of stopped answering me and went on dinners, went on conferences, and did shows where you snapped pictures with the hosts at bars for happy hour. Then you said where the crime is or why make a big deal out of it? Then I asked if I can do this with women in the future and you said nothing. I asked you if it is not so bad; then you will never mind if I did this while with someone and you said nothing.
Your behavior was so horrific and what I witnessed was so disturbing you were trying to cause mental grief for me after everything I did and how I had made you a respectable and whole person again. Then you went and did the Jimmy Norton show (who is a guy that went on a radio show and described sex with his girlfriend, how he uses his fingers, and when she sleeps he likes to open her butt up and sniff it to make sure she is hygiene conscious.) You may not be very hygiene conscious but I must say to wash it down there okay, it is embarrassing to say the least. You may want to take better care of yourself Annie.
In six months you wrecked 20 years of your life and you kept pouring our how hurt you were and how hard you had worked. I got to the point where I gave up on you. You were totally out of control and wanted to inflict as much pain on me as you could because I disapproved and was pissed off just hearing about it. You were acting as if you were guilty and did things so outrageous to cover it up. I had complained about drinking buddies and you called up Jimmy Norton and said how you and he hang out all the time and if he was going to meet you that night “as usual.” Then posted pictures of him and his buddy with a grin on his face and you looking blitzed and stoned out of your mind; as if you had no idea what was going on.
If I did that with Laura or Ainsley or someone who had a major crush for me you would flip and get so defensive. Yet when I do it, it’s a crime because you do not trust women. Well, what the hell do you expect from me? To trust women also? I’ll run around the country with every woman and pretend to be having an affair with them to see how you feel and then tell you “where is the crime” or “you have nothing to be jealous about.” Then we can see who is right or who is wrong okay. I am in dire straits and if I have to rely on someone, than it is an emergency. None of this is an emergency. You log so much time with strangers and men and log very little time with me and call it business or career. But when I look at the photos, it looks like a bash and a celebration.
Ann, you have no comprehension of right and wrong preferring to emulate me. In my case it is an emergency, in your case it is just business. I am so sick of it and you now. Half the stuff I do not even know and is secret or I was not even there. Yet for some reason, you feel you have a special claim to me and special relationship which is real; it was until you ruined it in only six months. Than you told me you had to go get sedatives because you felt a nervous breakdown after 20 years and the nose dive after the trip to LA. Of all the problems, I never once criticized your work or work habits; I did not like your private life and asked you about holidays; recreational trips; outings, reports of you and groups of friends in Palm Beach and NYC; etc…
I do not have the same privileges and what privileges I do have are for emergencies; so I tend to think you abuse your female persuasions and use your influence over others to create an image that causes you to win when you may otherwise not. I do not like the arm candy idea or the pictures of it. I do not like hearing about secret parties or conferences intended to seduce you or keep you interested in a circle of single men. Why you attend them is a whole other reason when you could be building a life with me. If that is what you want, then do not log time with other men and make excuses or hold onto this secret life which ends up causing me so much grief then wondering if I will ever come around and love you fully.
Most people hate you and I am beginning to understand why. You have no comprehension of what friendship and love is about; you think it is just doing the craziest and most outrageous things to prove your courage or some characteristic you have that cannot be criticized. Yet there is a lot of room for criticism and that is my entire point here. You are a hateful person and it comes out as subtle with me. You put yourself in stupid places and you make excuses, which I have done before and understand, but to you it is a way of life. I did not mind you going to a WH dinner for once, or an award ceremony once, but to make it a way of life is unacceptable. Through the years it has been crap about all your male friends Drudge, Maher, Hannity, Rush, etc…
It is getting to the point where something has to give and you have to show me why you are a champion because women are coming to my aid and to fight you off or stop you. I had to fight off your stalkers and now I have women helping me and can see you for who you are also. Yet you call those guys your friends and something is not right. I can now see it on your face as the guilt and the tension builds up as you try to take as many bullets as you can for others out of guilt and hope I will forgive or overlook what you did or has happened; “what the hell is this woman doing? She is either courageous or downright insane.” Why is she trying to win my heart by doing that; it is almost like jumping off a bridge.
I think it is high time you sit down, lock the door, do not go out on dates or dinners, do not attend any social event; and pour out your heart and write an honest biography of why your life is so messed up and why I want to leave you. You can’t even use the US mail like a normal person and nothing is normal in your or our life. In my eyes, you are mentally instance, too defensive, too secretive, very vindictive, and would rather inflict pain and grief on others than explain yourself when you cannot. If you want love and worked twenty years; then you can surely explain the mistakes and explain why or what you did. I think that is fair unless your guilt is so bad you know it is suicide.
It was a hard sell Annie, but once you stopped or could not answer yes or no; I knew there was a major problem and you were even exaggerating and lying on certain occasions; then you felt guilt eventually and admitted “something you were hiding.” Meanwhile, I was nominating you for a Congressional Medal and you destroyed the lives of others recklessly or not. You caused a lot of grief and to some whose only crime was living. I feel self hate and even guilt for aiding you now but I was not there and never there. Just like the dinners and the drinking buddies; I was not there and never there so you kicked up the show again which got me more and more disgusted.
So did you do anything to piss me off and had your friends hide it so you could bond with them and have this special access and privilege? Are they blackmailing you or is that why you won’t get rid of them for attacking me? Your so called “friends” attacked me and you did nothing or did not fire them. Why? Are they going to retaliate also? What other secrets are you holding and taking to the grave or will you ever say after I cleaned up and made you look pristine again? So keep meeting them and flying to LA for a one hour show; I think it is just some secret pact you have going with a few reckless people you hang out with and keep around. No wonder you were so frustrated with them and flew out to see them immediately when they called your name or demanded to see you in conference.
If anybody reads this, I have some advice for you. You will never catch Annie, never. Only I can. She is not dangerous or a threat; just annoying and a nuisance; just her private life also, nothing else. She argues her point constantly and even I tell her to shut up or “no buts about it.” Ann takes things too far and is too detailed at times when important things are neglected. She works on trivial things of no benefit and makes it a routine or a habit. Ann is a confrontational person and likes to show boat. She takes too many chances for very little gains. With her it is either win big or looses it all. She likes to keep people guessing but does not like to be guessing. She is not modest enough to avoid being called a hypocrite which built thick skin and a defensive attitude through the years.
There are things about Annie intimately people will not like and will never accept. I am dealing with this now; Ann is unapologetic about it, thinking it is some female trophy trait. She is obsessed with the image of being a trophy wife and to offer it as a full platter of womanhood for some lucky man. The only problem is it appeals to rich Jewish men and not military ones who are not urban dwellers and are rugged individualists. All the fame and fortune got to her head but she does appear independent and less likely to act lewd now in public with all the attention. I think at some point she realized she will never outlive it and had to either lie or do outrageous things to overwhelm the curiosity of attention.
I think she messed up and is trying to get a second chance back; but it is hard if she has to answer questions or be accountable. I have attacked her closest friends and they did not fire back any salvos; but Annie did; so I knew she was protecting them and secrets. It is easy to tell when or if she was lying. Annie is almost at a point of near break down trying to please various circle of friends who she relies on to keep her private life secret. So I told them if I found out they laid to me, I would get rid of them. So if they want to defend her, at least defend her honestly and let the chips fall as they will.
I broke Rush. Then I broke Sean. Then I broke the media. Then I broke Maher. I almost broke LA but could not because she had a private meeting. Then I almost broke Annie when I got a report of her engagements and ex boyfriend lists, stating that if any of it was true, then do not waste her time. Then she came out with the Ron Silver eulogy about her affair with him and his threesome with her wife (before I would never believe it from Annie; now I don’t know). There is just so much bizarre stuff.
But Laura had warned me about some hotel and some incident she overheard of sharing a bed with some close friend. It used to be fun and games while a captives but now it is more of an emergency and a serious matter. (i.e.: fisting was a joke to play sexy, in the state of CT you would beat your wife so long as the stick was less than 3cm in circumference – another joke, sodomy was how they cracked down on gays but how Catholic girls lost their virginity, I had interviewed Hooters – strippers – bar tenders – girls at dance clubs – the single scene essentially.)
I had thought her LA crew had something very bad and asked her but she said nothing and would not answer. Then she flew out there and had a secret meeting with them and the attacks stopped. Next thing I know, Maher spills the beans as Annie had told me and that was off the table or sort of resolved. Then Annie took the first cut or last one and said how they would hang out all the time in NYC which made her a mystery again. I just got fed up and finally threw the towel in and remembered a real woman, Lori. Lori went out of her ways to not offend or make you uncomfortable; yet was so committed and so honorable and graceful. There is or was no room for any criticism.
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Friday, March 13, 2009
COMMENTS ON BUSH AND IRAQ: STRATEGY OF US RESOLVE AND SATELLITE WARFARE (MIXUP IN READING)
Friday, March 13, 2009 As part of my "total war" and "totality strategy" for satellite warfare, i was working on the elusive Pentagon triad and what they call the three theater system. The strategic triad is more of a nuclear ready poise and I developed and analyzed the Mutually Assured Destruction plans; then memorizing all of them and devising my own by memory. In satellite warfare, the similarities are close if not identical to the brinkmanship and gamesmanship; as well the assured destruction.
The three threat system is not readily available because my work is missing (some). I am not able to recall the strategy of three theaters by heart but it had to do with a conventional gap and nuclear forces and the ability to shorten it to near parity. the symbiosis and use of three prong attacks or top secret methods was used. However, the "US Resolve" as I called the strategy ended up in the hands of the Bush Administration.
I was not happy with Iraq and felt it was very risky. I had known in 1990 that invasion (like North Korea under MacArthur was lingering and debatable). I knew the minimum would be 10 years and even longer as rebellions and power vacuums formed. I only learned of Iraq in 2006 as I kept away from the news to forget and was in a mild coma. Afterwards, I was not whole and did not function right. But my initial reaction to Iraq was "this is insane." I felt the Bush Administration was trying to punish the military as I had sent letters to the Pentagon and media outlets I was under attack and to please contact them. Next thing I know I was arrested. I felt Iraq was about money and also an inquisition or challenge to "stick your head up" as I did. So we can see clearly who was behind it and manning the machine guns above our heads. Even if they spill the beans, it is still so controversial and damaging.
I had never been so depressed and so downtrodden; being told I was crazy, making things up, some threat to society, and all along I was being recruited by a terror group and spy agency. To be accused of a crime you are innocent of is one thing, but to have the world turn on you and then take the pain and be silent was another. It left my blood boiling and the thick skin grew over the scars which never went away. It is indescribable the feeling and the pain you feel initially which then turns into this anger you turn off and on like a hurricane and tornado which is the wrath of God.
As far as Blackwater; I have never respected them. I felt they used jealousy and empty promises to uphold a romantic dream some military people live for briefly. In 1998-2002, I was destitute and they flooded the newspapers with security firms and private armies but you had to provide some resume. I took a test for one but never landed a job; sent maybe 10 resumes out. There is an honor code in warfare and if you break from it; you can easily be labeled a barbarian and I know for a fact I am not; but I am astute and are as aggressive as a human can become. I simply do not have or know enough to judge blackwater but from what I know I do not like Bush. I don't like people who have no command and leadership or accountability system.
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